Forgiveness on shame, regret, and embarrassment...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live in shame most of my life... For the very fact that I would always get nervous, or extremely embarrassed if, I had to speak up in front of people... Or just being in social situations, where I would get embarrassed or nervous... I know I was just afraid of change and losing myself... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regret many things I have done in the past... Like letting my dad down by quitting sports... Doing drugs, going to strip clubs, getting trashed to the point I almost died... I forgive myself for all of these things... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing embarrassment to control most of my life... Many times in my life, I have been embarrassed or humilated... When I was younger I pee'd my pants twice in school... This was very embarrassing and humilating... Embarrassment has plagued my life, like some type of cancer... I have many occassions where I have panic attacks in public places... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing embarrassment to plague my life... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing shame to reside within me for some of the things I have done... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have oral sex, with my one friend... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ashamed of having a gay guy give me a blow job... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel embarrassed for exposing those two incidents just now...