Self-forgiveness 2-17-09...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my sexual fantasies get the best of me once again... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have sexual thoughts... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to indulge in looking at porn... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to masturbate... I forgive myself for using women as a sexual object and looking at them as if, they are a piece of meat... I forgive myself for believing I'm a pervert... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing guilt to reside in myself... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing blaming myself or others for this sexual frustruation I am experiencing... I forgive myself for thinking I'm fucking up my process of self-honesty, and I won't be able to break the spell of sexual infatuation of looking at naked women... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing judgment to reside in myself... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to call these women sluts, that I would love to fuck... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define these women as hot and lesser women as ugly... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to keep making the same mistakes over and over... I forgive myself for sounding like a broken record with my self-forgiveness... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe others might judge me more differently now, since they might have seen my blog... I forgive myself for allowing myself to define myself as some type of persona I might think I might be...