Self-forgiveness for 3-15-09...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become frustrated with myself for looking at porn and masturbating once again... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel disgusted of myself for looking at such hard core porn and looking at porn in general... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to set myself up for failure, by saying to myself I can look at porn without masturbating or feeling no attraction towards the naked women... When all I am doing is participating in temptation, which leads to me abusing myself... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get pissed off at myself for abusing myself... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to beLIEve I will never get over porn and masturbation... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel the need to give up on my process all together... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to care what others might think of me... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in separation by existing in sexual fantasies... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use those naked women as a way to get off for myself... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel the urge to masturbate... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have sexual thoughts in my head... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be able to stop these perverted thoughts... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to beLIEve I'm a filthy disgusting pervert...